so many years
of constantly competing with
you
we could keep running laps
and the further
I am from
you,
the more distance between us,
the faster my feet
hit the pavement,
doesn’t seem to be enough to
keep you from
winning
even when it seems
I’ve hit the finish line
and out ran you
for miles
you
still
win.
but winning was never your
plan
was it?
no,
you wanted to drown us in
guilt
and sink us in sadness
or disguise yourself in kindness
to fill us with madness
never stopped and realized that you
also fueled us with
anger
and watched us
burn in our misery
but we were blind to all of it
on our own accord
because loving you was
better than loving ourselves
loving you was like rain
I took you in drizzles and I took you in storms
always forgetting all at once that you’d make me sick
and I was never one for doctor’s visits
– D.R.
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